well it is official i am an idiot....I wrote something on my main page on facebook that was meant for a private group...i think i realised in time and got rid before anyone saw it :s could be very embarassing other wise haha.
We had another eventfull night with Aimee. Will me and Scott ever get to spend a whole night in bed together again????
Scott took the older 2 to school and i managed to sleep in with madam till 10.30. we then got into our routine and had brekky...watched some tv and played with the dolls house. I then had to print a picture that needed posting..it should have been done on wednesday but i had a printer malfunction...not good i hate letting people down especially people that pay :( hopefully the lady will be happy with it. i always worry when i make something for someone..what if they think it is rubbish :s a
The girls went to my mother in laws for tea so was just me and scott for dinner, i made chicken curry and rice ...was lovely, maybe just a tad hot. is good for me as i hate cooking, i tend to burn everything as i am afraid of poisoning people!!
sitting here writing this everyone is in bed and asleep it is a miracle! i am going to watch some fringe and have a cuppa and chocolate. Then it will be time to go to bed and it will all start again :s
Thursday 7 February 2013
Wednesday 6 February 2013
Wednesday 06/02/2013
Well last nights bed time was unsucessfull yet again. Aimee went to bed ok but was up at 1am in my room again..poor scott once again went in Aimee's bed :S it seems like we never get a full night to sleep in the same bed together. Poppy has gotten to the age where she knows everything, i know nothing, she constantly hates me etc...a proper kevin :S. i think she is on the verge of puperty and her hormomes are sky rocketing. Me and poppy are like carbon copies of each other...she looks like me, has my personality and temper unfortunatly. we clash big time and i am so scared that we will be destined to fall out and not get on for ever more. Some of it is my fault, my paitience level is non existant...i really need to be more empathetic to wards my kids :s because i was left to it growing up i am doing it to my kids and that is not right!!!! I am also a do it later sort of girl...which when you have 5 people in the house is not the attitude to have....my washing is ridiculous and i am struggling to catch up...i have days when i blitz and go mad and then i have days when i just don't do anything. I suffer from depression and i don't think that helps much, i also have mild ocd issues with things:S I am 50 shades of screwed up just without the bondage :P. i make a point of tellinjg my girls and scott everyday that i love them..i never had this growing up and i think it makes a difference.
Poppy is my 11yr old ..my little madam :) she has had a few issues in the past with bullying...which included glue in her hair, cuts on her face etc not nice stuff...thankfully it doesn't go on anymore but the damage is done. She has very low self esteem and is very nervous, she cries at the drop of a hat and takes everything to heart. We saw consultants last year as we worried that she was always ill :S we found out that she has small panick attacks and suffers from anxiety. She is slowly getting better and i am glad to see she has some fire in her again ( although the arguing is tiring)
Holly 8yrs is a little miss attitude...far too pretty and clever for her own good hehe.....she has a new boyfriend every 2 days !!!! she is doing great but has a really bad jelousy issue. There are 5yrs between Aimee and Holly and Holly hasn't ajusted well at all, she was so used to being the baby in the family that when Aimee came along i guess she lost her place for a bit...she is slowly starting to find it again but it is a longggg road :S we really tried to not have the middle child syndrome thing happen.
Aimee is doing amazing...considering the changes on her brain and her issues she is is amazing. She has the behaviour problems but hopefully as she gets older we can help her controll it :)
she is very much a mummy's girl!
When i look around me at the girls i do think .."am i giving them all enough attention.." honestly i don't think i am. i sit here almost in tears typing that and admitting it to myself for the first time! I really need to spend 1 on 1 time with poppy and holly...we need that time together and i am realising it now...it will get better and we will be fine :).....
Poppy is my 11yr old ..my little madam :) she has had a few issues in the past with bullying...which included glue in her hair, cuts on her face etc not nice stuff...thankfully it doesn't go on anymore but the damage is done. She has very low self esteem and is very nervous, she cries at the drop of a hat and takes everything to heart. We saw consultants last year as we worried that she was always ill :S we found out that she has small panick attacks and suffers from anxiety. She is slowly getting better and i am glad to see she has some fire in her again ( although the arguing is tiring)
Holly 8yrs is a little miss attitude...far too pretty and clever for her own good hehe.....she has a new boyfriend every 2 days !!!! she is doing great but has a really bad jelousy issue. There are 5yrs between Aimee and Holly and Holly hasn't ajusted well at all, she was so used to being the baby in the family that when Aimee came along i guess she lost her place for a bit...she is slowly starting to find it again but it is a longggg road :S we really tried to not have the middle child syndrome thing happen.
Aimee is doing amazing...considering the changes on her brain and her issues she is is amazing. She has the behaviour problems but hopefully as she gets older we can help her controll it :)
she is very much a mummy's girl!
When i look around me at the girls i do think .."am i giving them all enough attention.." honestly i don't think i am. i sit here almost in tears typing that and admitting it to myself for the first time! I really need to spend 1 on 1 time with poppy and holly...we need that time together and i am realising it now...it will get better and we will be fine :).....
Tuesday 5 February 2013
reflections
A pretty stress free day so far. We have had a couple of melt downs but they ended quickly.
I was sitting here on the laptop and looking through my facebook profile and i came to friends section ...who are all these people...some i don't know i have just purchased items from them...some i went to school with and some of those friends wernt actually " friends" in school. some i have and i don't even see anymore but wish i did.....how things change in life. Having my girls is amazing and i wouldn't be on this earth without them but i do sometimes wander, where would i be today if i didn't have them...what would me and scott be doing? did fate step in? Scott is my soul mate and i honestly don't think there is anyone lese out there for me ( ewww i know hehe).
I seriously need to get my butt in gear and start decorating my house this year aswell. We moved in 5yrs ago and havn't really done anything but paint :S....i must go and cook tea
Tea is all done :) a pretty mess free meal today :). Scott came in from work and made burgers with fries and burger sauce...was yummy!!
Tomorrow is pay day and i really must sort out a meal plan of sorts so that i dont overspend...something i tend to do every week!
hmmmmm...best start trawling google for ideas!
I was sitting here on the laptop and looking through my facebook profile and i came to friends section ...who are all these people...some i don't know i have just purchased items from them...some i went to school with and some of those friends wernt actually " friends" in school. some i have and i don't even see anymore but wish i did.....how things change in life. Having my girls is amazing and i wouldn't be on this earth without them but i do sometimes wander, where would i be today if i didn't have them...what would me and scott be doing? did fate step in? Scott is my soul mate and i honestly don't think there is anyone lese out there for me ( ewww i know hehe).
I seriously need to get my butt in gear and start decorating my house this year aswell. We moved in 5yrs ago and havn't really done anything but paint :S....i must go and cook tea
Tea is all done :) a pretty mess free meal today :). Scott came in from work and made burgers with fries and burger sauce...was yummy!!
Tomorrow is pay day and i really must sort out a meal plan of sorts so that i dont overspend...something i tend to do every week!
hmmmmm...best start trawling google for ideas!
my gorgeous hubby and girls xxxx my life x
hehe me in my birthday onsie and slippers from my girls
Holly making her brownie promise...proud mummy moment
my gorgeous boy Elvis he is lurcher x labrador
Scott posing with George pig hehe
The gorgeous miss Aimee posing in the Dribble bib i made...she looks so grown up!
my 3 gorgeous ladies Poppy, Holly and Aimee love them to bits xxxxx
Tuesday 05/02/2013
Sleep deprivation is cruel and unkind :S Aimee is wide awake while the rest of us are like zombies. Her condition means she can have sleep issues...and boy does she!!! she went to bed last night at 8pm and settled well...the other 2 being older are allowed to stay up till 8.30, in that time we hope Aims gets to sleep lol...well she did, but sadly at 10pm she woke up :s that was the start of a long night. It is very sureal sitting at 10pm at night and watching her just running in circles on the rug. she is so tired that she is dragging her right foot and falling but she doesn't slow down when tired...she gets super hyperactive and is like a child possessed. at 12am we decided that we had to try to get her to sleep we went upstairs and put her in her bed ( she wasn't amused) and scott sang her a song and then said good night....luckily she drifted off and stayed asleep till 8am this morning...that is a good night for Aimee. I think all the days of hardly any sleep are catching up to me :s
i love her to pieces and she is gorgeous but it can be really hard work sometimes. she is currently watching jungle junction eating some crisps. it is nice and calm...for the moment.
I just want one day when i can go to the loo on my, or have a bath without having to have an audience...it is the little things you miss most.
Potty training is going well...she took her nappy off herself earlier and went and got her potty to go on :) very proud moment! her imaginative play is getting better aswell :) she is starting to play with her dolls house and dolls rather than just throw them around the room. her speech is still not quite there but it is definiteley getting better :) i am so proud of my little girl she is such a little trooper and fighter xx
i love her to pieces and she is gorgeous but it can be really hard work sometimes. she is currently watching jungle junction eating some crisps. it is nice and calm...for the moment.
I just want one day when i can go to the loo on my, or have a bath without having to have an audience...it is the little things you miss most.
Potty training is going well...she took her nappy off herself earlier and went and got her potty to go on :) very proud moment! her imaginative play is getting better aswell :) she is starting to play with her dolls house and dolls rather than just throw them around the room. her speech is still not quite there but it is definiteley getting better :) i am so proud of my little girl she is such a little trooper and fighter xx
Monday 4 February 2013
Monday 04/02/2013
Today has been a good day. Scott took Poppy and Holly to breakfast club before school and Aimee slept in till 9.30! We have been having issues with sleep at the minute and poor Scott once again had to sleep in Aimee's room as she decided she had to be in with me. We got up had breakfast without any major melt downs and then i put Mickey Mouse on the the tv for her. She loves Mickey and Minnie. this kept her quiet for 20mins...then she saw Holly's moshi monster collection...que me wrestling with her to save them, and first melt down, kicking, screaming and shouting at me....finally managed to calm her down with a bribe of crisps :s. sat down for lunch and that went without any major issues.
curently Aimee is sitting colouring in..this seems to be one of the only things that calms her right down, she loves to draw and colour in.
time to get ready soon and do the school run! hopefully not next major meltdown
curently Aimee is sitting colouring in..this seems to be one of the only things that calms her right down, she loves to draw and colour in.
time to get ready soon and do the school run! hopefully not next major meltdown
My daughter Aimee is 2yrs10mths old. She suffered a stroke at birth and as a result has Cerberal Palsy in the form of Right Hemiplegia. She is an amazing little girl and teaches me new things every day. Aswell as CP Aimee also has siezures and is mild epileptic and also has behavioural issues. she can be such a loveing child...but she can also be the devil lol. I have decided to write this blogg as a way of keeping a diary of how life is with the whirlwind that is Aimee.
I have 2 other girls aswell Poppy 11yrs and Holly 8yrs both amazing and both put up with a lot!
I have 2 other girls aswell Poppy 11yrs and Holly 8yrs both amazing and both put up with a lot!
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